ShadedRain

Wander into the center of the cat's eye Gold and jade Eternity in enigmatic shine Whisker twitch and purr Lulling into peaceful dreams Sleep now in limpid pools of starshine Speckled with swirling galaxies of sapphire and silver Tread silently on the line of the beyond Elliptical veil flashing mirrored rainbows Window into the fields of Elysium

In the splendor of the dark Black roses bleed Crimson drops of broken dreams Tears unshed And silent screams I lie here naked The moonlight washing over me Gazing up at the sky A small part of myself Wishing to be free But I am In love with my pain It's the only thing That keeps me sane The needle pricks of memories All the things I've tainted Forever waiting for the world to fall on me Because of all the things I didn't see Wishing for it all to come down again Only this time for it to be the very end Screaming out for change But I know it never will Everything I love Is everything I kill

My purple shaded eyes Gloss over with tears And the crimson stains fade But the scars won't wash away You love the taste of my pain Don't you? I don't exist unless I'm in front of you Your eyes only want to tear me apart I know it shouldn't bother me You've always had the coldest heart Change you say Conform you repeat Over and over again I tell you I want to be my own person And you slice me with your tongue once more Why don't you just tell everyone the truth? Act like one of us And we'll pretend we love you You can't handle a mind you can't control So hate me if you must I will not become another clone

If forever is all we have Stay with me until the end And we'll drown in the Pastel shades of blue Dreams whispering, begging Then screaming not to be killed While they are pulled under the blade Walk with me again So I can drink in all your tears Soak up all your pain Now I want to find some joy in my life Before it has all been hunted For it's shimmering tones And warmth It's pretty face mounted on Some nauseatingly happy moron's wall Black, dead eyes staring right Through my soul Out my window I see a tattered dream Who escaped the brutal slaughter But sadly will never fly It's bloody, mangled wings Dragging behind As

Can you feel it changing? The whirling in your head The line ever thinning Between the living and the dead Spin the red into the black Pinning eyeballs on your wall The pain of happiness Wrenching your insides Drop to your knees and crawl Sinking through the ceiling Bleeding when you cry Shaded is the looking glass Melting over your face Run and scream all you like You'll never escape this place Draw a pretty smile on No one will ever know You're nothing but a failure Or at least the voices tell you so Staple your eyelids open You can never sleep The shadows will come creeping in To take you while you dream

Sometimes my dreams are so real, I find myself wondering if they really happened. It is because of this, that whenever something extraordinary happens to me, whether it be good or bad, I find something physical to remember it with... a phone number written down, a screen name on my buddylist/in my email box, a cut, a message on my answering service, anything to prove I didn't just imagine the whole thing. I know that might seem strange to some people, but I have this underlying fear that one day I will wake up and none of the good things that happened to me will have been real and all of the bad things that I thought I had dreamed will have b

Whisper to me in tearful kisses A pale love blinded by my sight Circle round the moonlit sun Just to make it through tonight Green water glitters Golden stars looking back at me Black storm clouds wash over And restless waves of pain Rise high out of the sea Impossible to hold the tide And one of us may drown Screams bubble up, deafening Silence is the only sound